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Jusmin

Jusmin

I feel good because today is a calm day, and I started studying Spanish at Duolingo!
Last week I got the 3rd, so I want to take 1st this week[笑う]
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自分がなりたい自分になろうとする時に、結局、社会適合性の高い自分になりたいと思うことが多い。それがほんとに自分がなりたい存在なのかは微妙。社会の成員である個々人をそのように仕向けようとする社会教育の成果だ。

When you try to become someone you want to be, you’ll most likely end up wanting to be someone of high social conformity. There might be some room for doubt whether it’s someone you truly want to be. I think it is just the result of social education that manipulates individuals to be like that as constituents of society.
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I’ve been having a heavy stomach and loose bowels since when I ate too much of fried chicken and tonkatsu in the same day two weeks ago. On Friday in the same week, a day earlier than the fries feast day, I happened to eat ramen topped with oysters. I’m wondering if they have something to do with my stomach issue, or it’s just a sign of my aging that shows my weaker indigestion, or the combination of everything that is peripheral and coincidental like I had a bad luck and food was spoiled.

During the following week, I tried to restrain myself from heavy meals and my stomach was getting better. However, last weekend, a friend of my wife came to my house and we had a drink together. I drank too much. I suffered a terrible hangover for next two days.

During this week, I continued light meals. However, yesterday I was dying to eat tsukemen and ate it for lunch. It was good, but the consequences followed as expected.
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I find the concept of ownership very intriguing. I think it is unique to humans and is based on the sense of choice or free will that is deeply ingrained in human psyche.

The objects of ownership generally include artificial things, part of nature, and living beings such as animals and humans.

The ownership entails the procedure through which it comes to be recognizable and authorized. Something comes to be under ownership of someone through the exchange of things and money between a former owner and a new one. When it comes to the objects that have distinct borders from others, it is easy to identify who owns them. However, when it comes to something like a piece of land and a person, the borders often become blurry, and the concept itself becomes abstract and elusive.

Analytically observed, ownership is based on the recognition made by separating an object from the whole. It is inherently for the purpose of convenience. Doing so and labeling a specific part of the whole with a name, the recognition of it is formed and then the ownership.
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All my family including me caught a cold one after another over the last couple of weeks. The first one was the youngest son who goes to middle school where a variety of different viral diseases are spread. He just had some sneezing, stuffed nose and occasional coughing. His symptoms were mild, but it passed on to his brother next. They both just had similar symptoms although the eldest son had a slightly high fever.

My wife took them to a clinic the other day, and they were diagnosed with a cold as usual. The thing is the doctor is alway not assertive when it comes to diagnosis. He just sees inside the mouth and casually says it’s probably a cold unless a patient has severe symptoms.

Anyway, I feel like I’m the one who is currently fighting against the wave of cold in my family. When I felt something weird, I immediately went to a clinic. He just repeated the same ritual of proclaiming it’s probably a cold and prescribed a bunch of different medicines. However, in retrospect, it was probably a hasty move for me to go to a clinic at that point.

I just have slightly sore throat, but I’m trying to get better so hard that I decided to be on futon all the day today. Hopefully this can work.

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It’s always been a bit of a mystery to me that there are two different personalities co-existing in my brain, just like Jekyll and Hyde. I don’t mean it in a clinical sense. Just by simply switching language to English, the other self shows up and dissects the world in a completely different way. He is more frank, aggressive, a bit sarcastic and most impressively, seems more thoughtful than I usually am.

One day, I had to convey some real important things to my wife. I looked for true words that would perfectly fit the situation. I didn’t know why I reached that conclusion but I chose to let this guy take over the expression of my deep feelings.
He was eloquent enough to make himself understood as always. But at the same time, it was really weird I suddenly started switching my language, just to make myself understood.

Why did I let him take the wheel?

I’ve come to believe in one hypothesis: there was a lack of a beautiful vocabulary of love. Throughout my entire childhood, I never saw or heard my parents expressing their love to each other. So, perhaps my dictionary just have missed those pages.
I lacked not only the proper words for my true feelings, but also the opportunities to strengthen the immunity needed to expose them to the rainstorms.
Probably this guy was crafted as a compensation for that loss, unconsciously protecting my nervous everyday self from brutal rejection.

So that explains his f***ing spicy flavor? Huh, fair enough.

But another mystery is unfolding right now. Since starting Gravity, surrounded by the goodness of beautiful people, my everyday self is gradually gaining the ability to express my real feelings. Yo, I never imagined that would happen to me.

Hallelujah, I’m definitely embracing the discovery of my new self.
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The final season of Stranger Things was released today on Netflix. The first four episodes are available now. The rest will be so on the new year’s eve.

I think Stranger Things has been one of my family favorite series all the time since its first season. I don’t remember when the first season was released exactly. Maybe that was before 2018 when my sons were still quite little. The series brings back a lot of memories of our family time when we together binged episodes day and night.

It’s sad to see such a great show come to an end, but every story has to have an end.

The characters of the show, who were all early adolescents at first, must have fully grown up and become adults. In the previous episode, they didn’t look like the age the characters were supposed to be: Their bodies were no longer of kids. I miss naughty kids making so much drama in the show. I wonder how they look like in the final season.

I’ll be binging the episodes over this weekend.
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I think I almost recovered from my cold. On Sunday night, I was worried that it would be worse next day, but luckily I’ve been getting better.

I feel like it’s become harder for me to get over a cold as I become older. This time around, it took me more than a week to get well. Actually, I still have some weird feeling in my throat, but it’s wearing off and I feel much better.

Sometimes, when you are on the train, for instance, you might feel the strong necessity to relieve yourself. It’s almost impossible to control the call of nature from your body. However, it also the fact that we are under a binding social norm and a sense of shame by which we have to suppress that urge no matter what. That’s what I’m doing right now, namely, holding my urine, while speculating on why we are not free from these kinds of constraints. Humans are cursed.


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#惑星初投稿 #自己紹介
【この惑星で楽しみたいこと】
I’d like to get my motivation to learn English back

【最近のマイブーム】
Reading English versions of Japanese novels
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The individuals in modern society seem to be interchangeable like spare parts of one giant machine.
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