My heart has been screaming lately,
I feel it crumbling into pieces, I try to fix it, and then as I try to fix it, another strong blow hits me, and it breaks even more, and this cycle repeats. I can't take it anymore.Gross, gross, gross, gross,I feel gross, I hate myself, why do I feel so disgusted?I don't want to show him this kind of behavior now, so that he can rely on me even a little. It's a nuisance, and he probably doesn't have the time to think about me.Nothing has been done to me, nothing has happened, but I'm just sick.
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If you had been honest and told me you wanted to stay friends, I wouldn't have been hurt so much and I would have been happy being friends.If I hadn't been there in the first place, none of this would have happened... My existence has always been a hindranceIt's hard, I feel gross.
I can't do anything for them, I know I'm the most powerless person, I know I'm not needed, and I don't think I'll ever be loved. So why am I so weak?
12 誰も翻訳なんかしないだろうけど、
してくださってる方がいるから…、
正直翻訳しても出てくるのはキモい内容ばっかだからオススメしません[キラッ]2 I can't be number one, and I know that's inevitable, and I've given up, but it's still hard...I'm so tired, so tired... Honestly, my heart is broken from so many things.1 
復縁はありかなしか。
けど理由による！！！1 What does my mother want me to do?1 9 Ah... it's so hard, so hard... You don't have to yell at me like that... If you yell at me, if you make me feel hopeless, if you tell me it's enough, I'll get so tired that I won't be able to do anything.1 13 子供の頃に憧れた職業は？ パティシエとか、獣医さんとか！1 寂しいときは何をしてますか？ 一人で音楽とか動画流しながらゴロゴロして、ただ時間が経つのを待ってます[キラッ]2 I hate how weak I am, but I just keep getting weaker and weaker. Even though I'm getting weaker, it's just a hassle.2 I feel weak tweeting this here, where I'm connected to my dear friends, but there's no other place where I have no connection to the real world.あと何回寝たら、自由になれるかな1 I'm sure he'll accept me even if I show him my weak side, but I'm already weak and I'm afraid I'll become even weaker.2 Oh no, my head is full, it's broken, broken.3 In the end, you can never win against that guy.4 4 記憶力、いい方ですか…？覚えててくれたら、嬉しいな。 記憶力はいい方ですよ！
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